I know I haven’t been sharing a lot of personal stuff lately, but there are currently things that have been bugging me that I needed to get out of my system. It’s kind of hard to grasp that I turn 23 in two weeks time. It feels like only months ago where my 18-y.o. self would sit down with my girlfriends in my room after school and talk for hours about what we’d be doing in the next 5 years.
23 felt like a lifetime away.
Yet here I am 5 years later, nearly a year out of college, diving head first into adult life and trying to make a life of my own 3000 miles away from home. The truth is reality bites. Life gets cluttered with work, bills, savings, and it didn’t exactly come with a manual to tell me how to get my shit together.
It’s a weird time to be alive.
Being the oldest one in my family (the oldest grandchild from both of my parents’ sides for that matter) and seeing some of my friends getting married and starting a family, I’m kind of constantly under the assumption that I need to have it all figured out by a certain age or otherwise I’m forever stuck in a rut.
There will be lots of changes, unknown circumstances, and a lot of confusing experiences. So here’s a note for myself to look back on whenever I get tangled in all life’s uncertainties: always be grateful, have faith in yourself, remember that life’s not a competition and that you don’t have to have it all figured out by now. And you might never will, and that it’s okay too.
And when you’re feeling a little lost, I want you to take a second to look back to this warm summer drive to Allora under Brisbane’s January sun. May this sunflower field serve you as a kind reminder to always be bright and to hold your head up high no matter what life throws at you.
Because seasons may change, but you will always get to bloom again.