I really hope you had a lovely Easter weekend! It’s honest but heartbreaking to say that I was not really feeling it this year, but I’m trying. This week personally has really been about trying to focus on the silver linings, besides throwing myself a couple of short pity parties here and there.
Hate to ruin the spirits and sound like an ungrateful brat, but I could’ve been spending the holidays with my family this weekend if all of my plans didn’t get canceled, and I just needed to get it out there. And if you know me and my love for Indonesian foods, you’re probably not surprised that I had my trip planned out down to the foods I was going to eat on every meal, so when they announced border closures and travel ban a few weeks back, I just had to give myself some rights to a number of impulsive breakdowns throughout the month.
On another note, I turned 24 two Fridays ago. It’s more or less a “Cool, cool, cool, cool, cool. No doubt, no doubt, no doubt” – Jake Peralta, practically every Brooklyn99 episode. Time really flies but at the same time, it felt like March alone had lasted a decade.
It should go without saying that I had a really lovely one, despite only getting to celebrate within the confines of our apartment – Chinese takeout from this fancy new place we’re trying across the street, making wishes and blowing candles with my housemates, countless of Facetime/Zoom sessions with my families, and the sweetest surprise from my closest friends. It’s an understatement to say that my people are what keeps me sane, the loneliness bearable, and the days just a bit lighter.
And while it’s disappointing that all my plans were postponed, I have become increasingly aware of how blessed and lucky I am in this situation. I instantly feel more grateful than upset knowing that we are healthy, our family is healthy, and I am in the incredibly fortunate position of having jobs that allow me to work from home. I know that all of us are doing our best for ourselves and for the people around (but far away) from us. Those are truths we can carry with us today.
The fact that I’m unable to stand still and not being able to plan much is enough to drive me insane around here — which is why I’ve been distracting myself with intricate recipes, home workouts, good books, binge-worthy series, and Facetiming everyone as much as I can. So to end things on a sweet note (see, I try) – these Cream Cheese Cinnamon Buns were brought to life last weekend, because no matter how crazy the sitch is, some things remain the same – my sweet tooth and need for little cakes.
P.s. It takes almost a whole day but I promise you – it really was the most decadent, comforting, cinnamon smelling, yeast rolls I could find. And it’s not like you need to spend even more time staring at your wall, it’s not going anywhere.